Anyone who reads my blog, or should I say anyone who has actually read my blogs “About” area knows that this blog was created in a desperate need to find an outlet to so many things. I was 2 years into a fight with infertility that had left me confused and a little empty.
Anyone who knows me would say that me saying that I felt empty was ridiculous. I have a full, successful career. I have a marriage that is emotionally rewarding, challenging, and fun! I never knew that your marriage could be so fun! I live in a dream home and am surrounded often by great friends who I trust and love like family members. But, we all need something of our own.
As I sit here and write this I am struck cold. I realize that this is MY blog. It is Cooking, Baking, and a Side of Life. I haven’t been giving you the side of life lately, which is funny because I wanted to “weave personal anecdotes into my blog posts” (my own words) but I have been holding back. Why? No reason, there is not much to hold back. Nothing so interesting and groundbreaking about being Missy that I can’t share with you. Well, that is not true. I am going through IVF starting Monday. It takes 5 weeks to get pregnant when you start the cycle and includes daily self-imposed shots and a large amount of medication to ensure the ultimate environment. A several month process started in the beginning of the year that has culminated in us starting the process to become parents and I just started to realize that I stopped planning. I was told my odds are 81%, pretty much as high as you can possibly get. It won’t sink in that I will need a crib. A crib. I am STRAIGHT TRIPPING. This could be it!
So, here is sit in Peet’s Coffee, blogging, enjoying the last of the few days I will enjoy full-power coffee, thinking about the journey behind me, and the journey in front of me. I know that this blog is what has sort of kept me in the center lane, not veering off onto some strange path, but focussing on a passion of mine, cooking and baking, and allowing that to decide my path. in other realms as well.
Since I started my blog, I have grown into a larger job professionally that has brought some of the most amazing individuals into my path. Real, strong, loving people with their own dreams and passions. I was asked to host a radio show named after myself once a week and talk about what I know best…food, restaurants, spirits, and my favorite…home cuisine! The show is doing well, and will very likely go from one hour to a 2 hour format. Now…… the babies!!! They are ready for us to create them and be their parents. It is time.
So, I write this because I pulled back, and I am sorry. My goal was to be crazy little Missy who likes to cook and eat, and I got very serious there for a bit. I think the first time you step into any form of media, even if it is just a little 1 hour weekly radio show you get a little spooked. But, that is not being true to me or my blog. Mrs. Maki Cooks. “Cooking, Baking, and a Side of Life” Look out for some big doses of a “side of life” I love you all!