I have heard that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. This applies in all things excluding conceiving a child.
For starters, you are told to keep doing what you are doing, and at some point it will happen. Particularly if you have gone through all of the testing and you and your partner are both healthy and there is nothing “amiss” in your reproductive machinery.
After 6 months you go to a specialist. You start medication….that doesn't work, so you start artificial inseminations and those don't hurt anything but your wallet. Finally….you go to the big gun. The ultimate end all – the one you hear in hush-hush tones. “IVF”
Then that doesn't work. For some strange reason that is unknown, it doesn't work. We did not even get to the point where we had embryos! All 15 of our fertilized eggs died. So….there was no reasoning. The doctors, at a clinic that in world renowned….were stumped. “We have no idea” So, we walk away, purse lighter and confused. Thinking that the world has another plan for us.
Flash forward. Done with the classes for adoption, awaiting the orientation for adoption and excited that we “figured it out”. We had realized….when put in the situation that we HAD to realize…that we just want a family, and that having our own children is not the only way to go about that.
THEN….you get another opportunity to go through the IVF process.
What do you do? The definition of insanity looms in your mind.
Sometimes you have to tell insanity to SHUT UP and start listening to FAITH.
Welcome to our next cycle if IVF……looking forward to keeping you posted on more of Mrs Maki's “Sides of Life”
XOXO Missy Maki – The Insanely Faithful Blogger.