There was a quote somewhere that said “Motherhood is desperately wanting a moment alone, and the moment you get it you miss your kids.” Ahh…so true. 2 days a month my kids get what we call “Germ Day” and they attend a daycare. This has multiple functions. The housekeeper cleans the house top to bottom, the nanny has a day for her own sanity and the big one: my kids interact with other germs…..er… kids. It is true. We were told by our physician that they would be stronger if they caught the bugs early. Well, they have, and so have I. (norovirus twice, for the record).
On this morning I arrive to my downtown office later, I sit and write about food and my soul, as I am now, and I try to get a moment to myself. Coffee, country music, you name it…all my simple guilty pleasures, wrapped into 1 hour. When it gets colder you will find me in the bathtub for sunrise coffee. I choose writing for now.
Writing has been an interesting way to get through these past 4 years. For me the moment I started this blog and shared all of my dreams, concerns, and journeys, life got easier to handle. I made a very hard decision, early on, to share a lot. Needles jabbing me through two IVF rounds, the challenges of taking hormones to make your body do something it won’t do….it is all here, if you dig deep enough. Holidays, pregnancies, joyful moments, painful hangovers, beginnings and endings to friendships. What I wonder, is how does sharing the ups and downs of your life to people make it easier, and even more fun? I think I start to see my life through not only my eyes but someone else’s. I love that I have been straight with you and that I do not paint a picture of suburban perfection. My lawn needs to be mowed and there are a variety of 3-wheelers out, sadly soggy in the rain as I write this and the sun comes up. Of course I do not make a living off my blog ( you will note there are no ads on this blog) It is mine and no one tells me what to write about.
Back to the silence.
I sit here in my office ( I share a den style office with my husband) and my desk faces 3 windows that overlook the quiet cul de sac we live on. Right now the sun is still down as it is deep into autumn, but when it rises I will be greeted by the glorious bright red and yellows of autumn leaves turning before the fall. Silent moments, perhaps with Jack Johnson playing in the background. Life is good, life is busy, I am fortunate.
Do you take moments and think of your fortune, in whatever capacity you have it? Health, friends, work, family, humor, love? I hope that you do. None of us gets everything but if you at all times can lean on one of those, then you are rich. If you have one great friend, perhaps love your job, have the love of a strong heart, can walk a mile, have parents or siblings you are close with, have healthy children….any one of these is enough. Enough to get you through. Silence offers me the time to think of my riches. My fortune.
Another cup of coffee poured and I am starting to think of the day. The sky is slowly coming on a gray-blue. The sun is coming and it will be time for me to iron my dress and put make up on. Hair up or down? Boots or heels? Simple daily thoughts. Nothing that important.
And so I sit here, and wrap up these thoughts and start to think of applesauce and getting a recipe I promised to get up last Sunday on the air. I will do that next. Yes, that is what I will do.
I hope you get a moment of silence, and to reflect on your fortunes, and perhaps write it down somewhere, like a blog, so you can be reminded when you need it.