For the record, I actually made these. they are coconut cake with vanilla glaze and dipped in orange tinted coconut flakes. I am annoying like that.
Why do I feel like shit when I take a day to relax? I think Coach would say that he has never seen me relax in his life, but I don’t know how to. There is something to do, and if you are tired? Take a pull off the keurig and get back to it. I am literally so much of a hyper-performer that an afternoon pf non accomplishment ( for normal people that is considered rest or relaxing,) will leave me disappointing in myself.
So, tomorrow, Sunday, after the show (one of my last!) I will be attempting to power-watch some netflix and drink la croix and maybe go for a walk. Snuggle the kids and do no chores.
So, I am going to Donut-ing. Get it? Do-Nothing?
Some days you just flip the script and walk down another road. Why did I decide to walk away from radio? Well for starters the radio station was sold (granted it won’t change hands for 6 plus months) but it takes a situation like this to make you realize you have been trying to talk yourself out of doing radio for about a year…..maybe 2. I have been on the air for 5 years and 8 months. For those who don’t know radio – THAT IS A LONG TIME TO NOT BE CANCELLED.
Here is the deal. I am exhausted. I am 46, and I have a full time corporate job that includes travel and a lot of focus (I LOVE IT!), a husband that does not get NEARLY as much of my time as he deserves and twin 4 year-olds who are straight up magical. Do I need a secondary career in media? No. I do not work at the station for a paycheck, but for a hobby. Yes, that is a luxury, I know it. Hashtag blessed.
I will do about 3 more shows. Maybe that. Wish me luck as I throw myself back into family and food. Expect a lot of cooking, family fun, home entertaining and dining out. I might finally begin that garden, start canning beets and go to the coast more often. Who knows….perhaps I will get in shape?
In the time I have been on the air I have been through a LOT. I went though a long IVF journey, I became a mother, I have emceed every food event from here to Northern California, and I have loved it all. But I need a break. I need to rest. I need to consider the marathon, not the sprint.
My family deserve it. So do I.
Changing the blog name. Changing the Direction of my posts ( back to personal and honest and about the struggles and successes of life) and changing my priorities.
I hope I will not lose you on my journey as I attempt to navigate these crazy waters and in the process uncover the Maki Family Values.
Love you all – thank you for your support!